Holding Back Lyrics

Seems like I have to change my life
It's on my shoulders today
But how can I go about my change
when I'm used to my old ways?

For awhile I could hide
Pretend that nothing bothered me
I thought that would make it better
But I can't hide forever

What do you expect from me?
I'm not trying to hold back
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After all that I've said,
You don't understand me
Just don't take it personally

I'm insecure playing love's games
My past relationships to blame
Still I can't just stand aside
Watching life passing me by
Absorbing every word you said

I know it's not what you had planned
I hope one day you'll understand