Not Turgenjev, But Close Lyrics

I dress in the skin of

What is already dead

I take on the part

Which the surroundings expect

Though there unaware

Of the anti-life inside

My thoughts circle around

The opposite of asphyxia,

Because that's what I am

(I haven't been anything else

For a very long time)

It has been written a lot about

The overwhelming darkness

But it didn't Clearly state

The amount of insight it contains

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It wreathes me and observes me from all angles

Maybe I am to be born now?

I look upon that day with fear and horror

I have reconciled myself

With my thoughts and vision

It took ages, but now it's over

I can accept the obvious

Because it's what you see

I can live with the hatred and self contempt,

But I cannot survive the disgust and nausea of others

If they were to experience me from the inside

Beneath the unasphyxiated exterior

I look upon that day with fear and horror

The day when suicide becomes inevitable

Because it will arrive, That, I know.