Mental Repression Lyrics

punish me let me down.
punish me i let you down.
as i come near the end is here.
eternal darkness is mine.
i'm left to suffer.
this i accept.Eighteen Visions - Mental Repression - http://motolyrics.com/eighteen-visions/mental-repression-lyrics.html
punish me let me die.
punish me i live a lie.
steel. lead. concrete. fire.

which do i choose for my departure?