Living With A Confidence Lyrics

I look in the mirror, I see another face
Waiting for my end will be my painful race
My appearance has altered since I consulted my surgeon
He told me about my illness, will survive one season

Drinking is what I need to forget my daily sorrow
Sadness is forgotten, will feel better tomorrow
Living with a confidence will not be better
My body is going weaker, my walking is a stagger

Jesus, I beg of thee, redeem my endless pain
Forgive my sin and save my life, that's only what I need
I prayed to you, every night, is this your thank to me?

I know you made this illness and drove me insane
It's my intention to fight this battle against you
Truth and denomination destroyed my lifeMessiah - Living With A Confidence - http://motolyrics.com/messiah/living-with-a-confidence-lyrics.html
There exists only hate and rage in my head

Pictures of my childhood cross my brain all the time
Happiness was easy, there weren't evil minds
Sadness was a foreign word, I never felt better
I played with my friends, day in, day out

I've got a lot of thoughts about my future
My body's a piece of misery, I'm crippled like a creature
Perishing in my bed and watching children play
Shall I wait for my end, will this be the right way
My torment is getting stronger, suicide is my solution
Nobody will cry for me, they will treat me like a felon
Everybody has forsaken me, delivery is my knife
Will suicide be the way to search for a new life
Messiah Living With A Confidence