Last Mistake Lyrics

I've worked so hard to come this far
Does that mean anything at all?
I stoked the fire, I took control
And now you know I can't give it up

A welcome disease
Force me on my knees
In deeper, now I feel the squeeze
I need to scream out
While drowning in doubt
And this, the last mistake I'll make

I wonder why it passed me by
And how you make it look so easy
I'm underneath it all
I try to read the scrawl in front of meRED9 - Last Mistake - http://motolyrics.com/red9/last-mistake-lyrics.html
But I can't quite make it out

A welcome disease
Force me on my knees
In deeper, now I feel the squeeze
I need to scream out
While drowning in doubt
And this, the last mistake I'll make

That I'll make, that I'll make and you can hold me to the fire
I'm on fire, I'm on fire and there's no stopping this course

I've tried so hard
I've worked so hard
And now you know I won't give it up