Mazohyst Of Decadence Lyrics

A fetus is the product of irresponsible adults.
Here I am,
Without a name.
I don't even know why I'm here
I don't even know
if I just live for a few months

I want to be loved. I want to be born.
Staring at the inside of the mother's body,
I felt something go fast.
It was the second month of consciousness
I can't do anything yet.
Before long, here comes a plug

I was scraped out.
The pain goes through my incomplete body
My mother's screaming stings my ears.
People in white gowns picked me up
In their cruel eyes, I see myself,
covered with blood without a right arm
They wrapped me in a black plastic sheet
Loosing consciousness, I try to think calmly
If you love me the way I am,
even if I'm deformed, it is fine with me
I can't forgive you

If you can't love me, I rather die as I am
That's why I don't bother to cry
like a newborn baby,
and I'll just sleep in peace
Just once,
I want to feel my mother's love with my hand
This may be love.
Thank you
The door was tightly closed
and will never open again
I must be yours in the future

Are you really sure about this?
Yes.
How many times have you had an abortion?
This is the first time for me
I've been involved in countess abortions, murders.
Can you forgive me?
I'm asking you one more time.
Are you sure about this?
Yes.
Are you ready?
Yes.
Let's get started.

La, la, la...

The body will be burnt until it has disappeared
SAYONARA

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umiotosareru kodomo tsumi no ishiki no nai otona otosare
namae mo nai boku naze koko ni iru no ka sae wakaranai keredo
tatta suukagetsu no inochi tomo shirazu....

boku wa aisaretai boku wa umaretai kono botai no naka mitsumete
boku ga ishiki wo matta toki kara nikkagetsu me nani ka ga hayai to kanjita
mada nani mo dekinai sono uchi puragu ga....

fukanzenna boku wa kaki otosareta itami ga karada wo tsukinukeru
haha no naki sakebu koe mimi nari ga yamanai hakui no otona tachi boku wo sukui ageta
reiketsu ni michi afureta hitomi ni chimamire no migi te no nai boku ga utsuru
sono mama kuroi biniiru ni tsutsumareta
dandan ishiki ga usureru naka boku wa kangaeru shizuka ni
Cage no boku wo kono mama aiseru nara sore de ii yurusezuDir En Grey - Mazohyst Of Decadence - http://motolyrics.com/dir-en-grey/mazohyst-of-decadence-lyrics.html

aisarenai boku wa kono mama shinda hou ga ii
dakara ugoe wo agezu shizuka ni nemurimashou
ichodo dake haha no ai kono te de kanjite mitai
kore ga ai na no ka mo shirenai arigatou
nido to hirakanai tobira kataku tomerarete ita
demo ne boku wa kitto mirai no kimi dakara
ra ra ra....

hontou ni kore de ii n desu ne
hai
anata wa nannin me desu ka
hitori me desu
boku wa kazue kirenai kodomo wo koroshite imasu
anata wa yurusemasu ka
.....
mou ichido kikimasu
hontou ni kore de ii n desu ne
hai
youi wa ii desu ka
hai
dewa hajimemashou

karada yakitsukusare hone ga nakunaru made yakitsukusu
sayonara

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生み落とされる子供 罪の意識の無い大人 落とされ
名前も無い僕 何故ここにいるのかさえ 解らないけれど
たった数ヶ月の命とも知らず。。。。

僕は愛されたい 僕は生まれたい この母体の中見つめて
僕が意識を待った時から二ヶ月目何かが早いと感じた
まだ何も出来ない そのうちプラグが。。。。

不完全な僕は掻き落とされた痛みが体を突き抜ける
母の泣き叫ぶ声耳鳴りが止まない 白衣の大人達僕を救い上げた
冷血に満ち溢れた瞳に血塗れの右手の無い僕が写る
そのまま黒いビニールに包まれた
だんだん意識が薄れる中僕は考える静かに
Cageの僕をこのまま愛せるならそれでいい 許せず

愛されない僕はこのまま死んだ方がいい
だから産声を上げず 静かに眠りましょう
一度だけ母の愛この手で感じてみたい
これが愛なのかもしれない ありがとう
二度と開かない扉 固く閉められていた
でもね僕はきっと未来の君だから
ラララ。。。。

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本当にこれでいいんですね
ハイ
あなたは何人目ですか
一人目です
僕は数え切れない子供を殺しています　
あなたは許せますか
・・・・・
もう一度聞きます
本当にこれでいいんですね
ハイ
用意はいいですか
ハイ
では始めましょう

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体焼き尽くされ骨が無くなるまで焼き尽くす
さよなら