If Your Fortune Fails You Lyrics

Say if your fortune fails you
You can say I was no good
Say I led you to destruction
Bye bye
I was outside of you
When you were all around me
Curtains (?) ???
I felt I was a hero
But it wasn't me Jandek - If Your Fortune Fails You - http://motolyrics.com/jandek/if-your-fortune-fails-you-lyrics.html
It was your lady
Hers
Now I got too many closing (?)

Too many mornings just aren't the same
Maniac visions of a world beyond my eyes
In the skies of our dreams mama
Heaven lead (leave?) you